Emmaduck's Ramblings!

Spooks is eating again and has been almost back to her normal, loud and in-your-face self today. I'm so happy that she's feeling better :)

I also sent off my one month's notice that I'm leaving my current flat. If all goes to plan I'll be moving in a few weeks time, so if I'm not around much then it's probably because I'm doing a headless chicken impression trying to get everything done!

After 2 and a half hours spent in A & E this morning, I found out that my ankle isn't broken!! Yay!!! It's very badly sprained and I may need physio on it if it doesn't improve, but YAY!!!! Also, tramdol is very nice stuff! It made me feel a bit sick, but it got rid of the pain, which is the main thing. My ankle was so sore after all the poking and prodding it took this morning, so painkillers that work were much needed.

Spooks has been acting weird though. She's been very quiet and hasn't eaten. The vets said to keep an eye on her and make sure she's drinking. If she hasn't eaten anything by tomorrow morning then I'm taking her to the vets, even if it makes me look a little paranoid. She's been a bit quiet all this week, and been doing stinky farts - I'm not quite sure how to explain that to the vet though! I really hope she feels better soon. She keeps looking at me and stretching a paw out. She hasn't meowed once either.

*sigh*

I know I haven't posted in a while, I'm sorry. Things have been a bit crazy here of late with various things.

Today I found out that the psychotherapy I've been waiting for won't happen. To cut a very long story short, I have waited 18 months for them to tell me that the options I have now are paying for counselling (i.e. non-NHS), 6 sessions of free counselling, or group therapy. All of those I've tried, and were the reason I was waiting for psychotherapy. *headdesk* I'm not a happy emmaduck. Hopefully my psychiatrist, support worker or GP will have something helpful to say about it over the next couple of weeks. We shall see.

Other crapness from today is that I may have fractured my foot. I sprained my ankle a week ago and my ankle and foot are still very painful, so today I limped to the doctors. Lovely female GP (not my usual GP) said that she is probably being over-cautious, but she wants me to have an x-ray to make sure it isn't broken. I have a form to take to A & E - my problem is that there is no way my anxiety will let me sit in A & E and wait for the x-ray. Aside from the fact that the last time I went to A & E I was suicidal, I can't stand hospitals or sick people in general and A & E is the epitome of that. I'm really hoping that my support worker can come with me (I'm meant to be meeting her tomorrow anyway), or that she can organise someone else to come with me, because I don't really have anyone else here that I can ask at the moment.

I've got an important letter to write tonight too. Probably shouldn't have taken those painkillers...!

Also, has anyone here taken tramadol before, or know much about it? I'm always a little nervous about taking new painkillers, especially ones that are so strong.

Finally, if you didn't see it last night, watch this: http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b00fm5ql/b00fm5mb/Horizon_How_Mad_Are_You_How_Mad_Are_You_Part_1/ It's part one of a two part documentary/experiment to see if mental health professionals can pick out the mad people from the sane people in a group of 10 participants. Definitely worth watching and incredibly interesting.

Velvet is back home and sleeping off the anesthetic. The lump was quite big, and I think bigger than they were expecting, but they were still able to remove it quite easily. Hopefully Velvet won't bother his stitches too much, although I am prepared with various things to stop him if he does (including a mini cone that one of the vet nurses made for me).

Oh and he STINKS! I think it's mostly because he fear-pooped quite a bit and no doubt laid in it too. I don't care because he's home and he's fine and that's all that matters to me.

Velvet! I have no idea what was going on with his fur there.( More pics!Collapse )

Velvet has a tumour on his tummy. It's about the size of my thumb-nail and round - think large Malteaser! He saw the vet today and she thinks that it's most likely a tumour (it could also be some kind of cyst), but since it's fairly free-moving that it should be easy enough to remove. I had the option of leaving it, but the poor little man is only a year and a half so I think taking it off while they can is the best idea. There's the possibility that it may grow back, and I could have it tested if I wanted to (I'm not going to bother because it won't change his treatment or anything). Weirdly, my biggest worry is him making it through the anesthetic.

Velvet is his usual cheeky, dopey self, and he charmed people at the vets with his cuteness.

I'll take some pics when he wakes up - he's currently snuggling with Mickey in their hammock.


Generally shitty day today. Velvet is the most important thing though. Everything else is just my anxiety getting me to as usual.

Does anyone else find that cat fur ends up forming a giant hairball inside the vacuum cleaner bag? It makes me very glad I'm not a cat!

Spooks has been biting my feet all day. I think she objects to the fact I'm having a 'spring' clean because she hates me moving stuff. I just wish she could express it in a better way than biting my bare foot when I'm on the phone to my Mum - I don't think my Mum appreciated being deafened either.

Tom Daley's competing in the diving today (Monday). I really hope he does well.

That's the extent of my unexciting life right now. Proper update when I'm not so sleepy.

I'm going to preface this by saying that it was chucking it down with rain most of the day, so a lot of the photos were taken through raindrop splattered glass. I hope you guys enjoy them anyway.


This lioness decided to have a nap almost right by our car.

( A good few more photos here, including my new love: lemurs :DCollapse )

How long should it take after having a blood test for my arm to stop hurting?

I had a blood test yesterday morning, and although the HCA found my vein just fine (so glad it's usually easy to take blood from me), it hurt and I now have a nice bruise. That's no big deal except that my whole arm aches and feels funny, which happens sometimes when my shoulder plays up, but it hurts most where I have the bruise. Also, I went all pale and clammy and almost fainted when the lady took my blood, which I was quite embarrassed about because that's never happened to be before either. I mean I've felt a little anxious and light-headed and uncomfortable before but I've never nearly fainted.

Sorry if that sounds a little paranoid. If it just felt like a bruise then I wouldn't be worrying about it.

Oh and safari park pictures from my birthday weekend to come in a bit - just have to finish editing them and upload them.